I know you are thinking "another blog from Thrills about how her kids are keeping her awake." That is not the case this time.
A couple of weeks ago, my former employer (who is a doctor) was arrested and charged with writing fraudulent prescriptions to feed her husbands Vicodin addiction. Then the next day her license was temporarily revoked because some of her employees believe she is using the drug as well.
Now today I got an email from my sister for a website with pictures of a boy who we went to church with when we were in high school. These pictures showed him as a women. Hubby then found this "boy's" blog. So I just spent probably 2 hours reading all of his posts. He is gay and is undergoing procedures to make him a woman. I did suspect that he was gay the last time I saw him a couple of years ago, but I would never think that he would turn himself into a woman.
So why can't I sleep? The problem is that when I found out something so shocking I become obsessed with it. I Google and read as much as I can find on the Internet. Then every second of the day, I think about it. When I finally fall asleep, The Little Guy wakes me up so he can eat and then I lie awake again thinking about it again. It is a vicious cycle. (As you can see, I am writing this at midnight instead of sleeping. I just fed The Little Guy.)
For both of these cases, I started out by thinking "this is interesting. I can't believe I know this person." And then all of the sudden I realize how sad it is. Why have they chosen this path for their life? I am not a crier, but when I think about these two people I could just cry for them.
I know that I need to spend the time I am thinking about them and their situation to pray for them. I always try to figure out how I can help, but I know all I can do is pray.
It is so hard when it is this close to home.